Nuanced meaning of 実際、いまこうやって目の前にするまでは > In the context the speaker is recieving a contract (let's say a job contract). In this particular scene he is sitting on a chair with the contract laying in front of him on a table, he is acting very cocky because he won a similar contract years ago but was cheated out the job, so he is trying to remind that to the company. > Is this sentence implying that the speaker wasn't expecting to see the contract laying in front of him, or is it implying that he was expecting it and it was the only way to know he'd be getting the contract. Also, I'm not sure whether is connected to or to .

He has inferred there should be the contract as same as previous years' winners. But he was cheated out of the job contract before. Therefore, in his case, the very moment he is seeing the contract just in front of him, he has not been so sure if he could expect the contract will exist in the world or not.